Hi,

Just stand still, right now, free your mind out of any thoughts. Now with ur mind eyes pook at all people around you, see them? Look how they move in their lives. Watch them how fast they move in a circle that you stand right in the middle, it's like breakimg the time and going slow motion while the rest still crazed with speed. Now light a smoke and stay there. I dont know why but it feels differently. I do this everytime this spinning this high speed circle make me dizzy.

Well nothing speciall if u ask me. Life is unbelievably too much often. What is rare is, is something I even capable of calling a name for it. Maybe new spirit? Change to better off course. 

I love serious men. Yes, I hate the clown laughing all the time jocking doing some stupid shit all the time dudes. Serious men, that's what I fall for. Grown ups, older than me men, maybe because I have father issues! How did ot came up? :))))

Anyway, there's something  wanna talk about but I really dont want so that's why I wrie with such incoherencey lately. Everytime I try to bury sth in me and not talk about it at all whatever I write is sooooooo shattered I dont even take them.

Anyway, anyway anyway, it's killing me. I woooooont talk about it. That is final.