Hey, _{just came home. I'm lying on the bed smokimg. Rough hours.}

It's like a big wave of air is sounding in my ears. It's abit cold but... the smoke in the dark goes up infront of the light my screen lits. Well if you want to know I've had better nights. I should have stayed at home. Have you ever said this? It' salmost a minute i'm staring at the screen aithout writing anything. My mind is full of thoughts. 

I need a break. I need a time out. A moment of steadiness. I wont go back from my word anyway, I wont check anything. I wont check any profipe, any account. I wont check on things. It's been alooooong time and I am done with that and I will sod the temptation. That's it, one less problem at the time. I need to focus on my lectures and essay and study. 

I will stay home this week and the next one untill I am fully covered the essays. 

Okay, I dont like changes, thats who I am. I dont like to have new neighbours, I dont like to to start things, relations, I think it's idotic to pile up aloooot of stuff when none of them are completely resolved. That's who I am. Call it ocd or whatever u want I cannot let things left unresolved. I absolutely have no problem on emotional life range. I'm talking about family stuff, no, old stuff. Urrrgh none of them, I dont know what has preoccupied my mind. 

Maybe I meed to under think right now. I miss things but I dont let me to miss them. I want to calm down. I dont know what it is. A sudden ruch of hormones to my brain?

Me amd sis had an argue over the stupidest stupidest thing ever, it seemed like I coudnt understand her no shod did understand me so...

Well, anyway, I dont know what the people do in eest of the country with all the earthquake and the cold, God help them. Although...

Nothing. No coherence here in my thoughts. I better go.