Dear damn dairy,

I was dreaming again. I was coming back from school, the smell of lunch she was cooking literary filled out the stairways and the whole building I could smell it from parking. I was dying from hunger. I went in and she was there, in the kitchen, she was happy and good and we talked, I sat on the table and watched her making food ready. we had lunch together and she told me, "Don't be lazy, eat! Why don't you eat food? Cook something and eat even when I wasn't there", I knew she was talking about the reality. I don't remember after I just remember she hugged me tight n said "I love you" and I said "I love you too" and everything slowly disappeared. I was awake.

Mom, I love you so much, Although you are free now but still you prefer to watch over me, my diet. advicing me and mothering me. Although we are apart but you are still a mother and I'm still a baby who needs you. Thank you that every night you come into my dreams and remind me that you are there for real and you see me for real and you know everything about me for real and you help me, still. I'm so happy that I have you like this but simolteniosly I wanna cry for that there is no one in the world I miss this much. If the world would end in 5 minutes you were definetly the ine person I would want to be with, you never leave me alone.

I know I should go back to sleep but I wanna cook right now. You know how impulsive I can be. I just follow what my heart says to follow.

پ.ن: پیش به سوی سبزی کوکو، امیدوارم به خوشمزگی غذای تو بشه. امیدوارم هرغذایی که درست میکنم مثل غذای تو بشه. اونیکی ها که دست پختاشون افتضااااااااااحه! امیدوارم من به تو کشیده باشم. :)))

Ps. The whole cooking project on 4:00 am was a complete success. It turned out to be awesommmmmme.