Dear damn dairy;

Postponing the travel constantly. I cannot make my mind. life is damn hard cause we have to make damn hard decisions. The weather is getting cold slowly, and I like it. It's freezing in the morning sometimes. The fridge is absolutely empty, so I can be sure I won't eat. Diet, exercise and the hunger. I work less these days, I write more, I laugh less, I walk more, I eat less, I sleep more, I talk less, I think more, I see less and I miss more. In a word, "no moderation".

I try to focus on the thing that matters less, like what dress should I buy so with no everyday argues I can pass the bloody hounds at the gates of the school. Or what bag pack is more suited for my shoulders, how many grams of calory I eat or can I just stop eating everything but ice creams? Or thinking about buying a tv and put it in front of my bed to watch scary movies which I hate or sad movies  and eating ice cream in my sweatpants.  I think about not important matters like they are important and I try to forget the rest. 

I do stupid things, I started crying when a sad scenes comes in a movie, I never could cry for the saddest movies but now even when Braian died in family  guy and I knew that stewie would bring him back to life with time mechine, I cried my eyes out. I laugh at stupid things too, I can laugh at a cup for 10 minutes. I tweet stupid thing thet no one understand their meaning. I google stupid things and read stupid thing. I just need tons of stupid things to wash away all these grown up life styles away. I wanna be stupid again. 

Ps. If you read it; You are a jerk for real. An ass! Do not doubt on this for that it is what you are. I made my point clearly last week and you bitch again  have done it? I dare you... I dare you...